There are times in life that things just seem to fall apart; finances, schedules, friendships and health. This week for us, it's health. 2 years after Swine flu was an issue, it is in our house. The flesh in me wants to be angry, frustrated that we were hit with this. The faith in me knows that God has control of everything. My biggest issue with sickness is that when my family is sick and I pray for them they don't get better. I have seen people healed through prayer, even when I pray. But my own family seems to be this wall for my faith, never have I prayed for one of them and seen a change except for the worse. My heart believes that my children and husband can be healed, yet my head says, "it's never happened, why keep trying?"
Where do you go from here? Do you press in or give up? I say press in. If you truly believe God is in control and knows what's best, you have to trust Him in how he answers your prayers and keep believing that He hears them and answers them. So who am I supposed to be? In this moment, it's mom, the prayer warrior and caregiver.
All of the different sides of me.
